End of April Recap: Better late than never? : )
The end of the month brought multiple birthday celebrations and I got to enjoy seeing many friends who I haven’t seen in a very long time. This was the highlight of the month! In fact, my social calendar has worn me out!
The Eighth Life - Nino Haratischivili
What Happened to You - By Oprah Winfrey and Dr. Bruce Perry
Can’t Stop Listening To:
Movie I Loved:
This Beautiful Fantastic
Show I Started:
Currently Most Excited About:
Glennon Doyle’s Podcast Launch on 5/11/21!
Current Favorite Ritual:
Reading in the bath with my new bath pillow and a Summer Friday face mask.
The Big Shift:
The last year of my life has been emotionally draining and chaotic. There are times where I have felt okay and “well-adjusted” to all of the changes (Covid, divorce, selling my home, new career, closing my yoga studio, etc) and other times where I have really struggled. You may have read previous posts where I talk about doing “all of the things” and using every strategy I knew to make myself feel calmer, safer, more grounded...but the point came along where 1. None of those things were enough and 2. Where I was completely burnt out from trying All Of The Things.
You know what I did? Something I am not very good at.
I asked for help.
I have never liked asking for help. I like to solve problems by myself and I like to solve other people's problems for/with them. I am an open book with a handful of people, and use them as my sounding board (and now I also use this blog as a large public sounding board) but I rarely request actionable help. It makes me feel weak.
But, infused with the courage from my friend, cousin and therapist, I decided to add to my supplemental regimen.
I started Zoloft 4 weeks ago. I cannot explain the difference this has made in the quality of my life.
It has eased my anticipatory anxiety to a practically non-existent level, has calmed my swirling mind, and allowed deep and restful sleep again. Now, this, along with the CBD tincture that I have been using for the past 8 months (I love the Green Compass product - curious...just ask! Happy to share info.), I feel like myself again, for the first time in forever maybe? I’m not consumed with trying to plan the future (because I literally have NO direction or idea of what it will bring….helloooooo anxiety!), or stressing about being everything to everyone (I have now resigned from that position emotionally!) and I am no longer my own worst critic (I have fallen in love with myself! - how cool is that??).
I am in a place where I have listened to my body this month.
Right now, this looks like….naps when I am tired, eating what I crave, moving when I want to move (which if I’m being honest, hasn’t been a heck of a lot), speaking my truth (which can sound like...I am too tired to cook, can we order out?, or, I cannot give this energy right now) and heaps and heaps of boundary setting!
I am happy.
Maybe my clothes are a little tighter and my body will eventually revolt from all of the gluten and cheese I have been eating...but I feel like I know my body better than ever, and like it’s grateful to me for giving it what it actually needs….time, space and grace.
The Big Reminders:
On The Food Front:
This has been a really nice month for yummy food (because of the reasons I mentioned above - and because I have found an amazingly yummy, new to me, food Instagram and blog to follow).
If you haven’t followed Half Baked Harvest yet, I highly recommend doing so!
I have made two of her recipes already and have big plans to make pop-tarts soon (can you say nostalgia?).
Two highlights have been her Folded Crispy Chipotle Chicken Wraps and Folded Crispy Buffalo Chicken Wraps. Both were big hits! I used Cassava flour tortillas for both and they were scrumptious!
My other favorite recipe was the Lemon Poppyseed Loaf from one of my go-to cookbooks, “Magnolia Table”.
I subbed Bob’s Red Mill, Gluten Free, 1 to 1 Flour - no one eating would have guessed it was sans gluten. You can purchase the flour and the cookbook through the link on my product page here!
Otherwise, I am over here, deciding to love my life, focused on two big goals, my emotional and financial health, and taking it day by day. : )
1. What has been your biggest takeaway from the month of April?
2. What are some of your favorite currents? (books, shows, movies, recipes...share em!)
3. Anything I mentioned that you would like to hear more about?