April has moved quickly...I think because Easter was so very early this year. I feel so fortunate lately! The weather is becoming lovelier and lovelier, I have had the chance to reconnect with friends that I have really missed over this past year (and beyond) and I have found a lot of peace in the newest supplement routine my therapist/doctor and I have tried (questions or want to know more, just ask!).
New Game: Rummikub
Currently Reading: Man's Search For Meaning - Viktor E. Frankl
Birthday: I had the most wonderful birthday celebrations this year. I loved being able to have brunch with my parents and brother at home and so looked forward to the day of surprises that Kristen had in store for me. The afternoon started with a trip to Holland Ridge Farm, about a 40 minute drive from Point Pleasant. We had tickets and a 3 hour slot to pick tulips, take pictures, visit the food trucks and try to locate our car....which is tricky in an unmarked field of hundreds of other cars..... the chilly weather couldn't even put a damper on how much fun it was to do something different!
Next it was time to hit up the Screaming Hill brewery to bring some beer home. I really liked the Blood Orange Pale Ale...especially paired with cheese and crackers.
Finally, we finished the night off by getting dressed up (for the first time in....a year???) and going to The Poached Pear for dinner. It was amazing....Garlic Shrimp Crostini to start...followed by Ancho Coffee Rubbed Strip Steak and Mushroom Risotto....not to be outdone by the Grand Marnier Crepe Cake and Espresso....all that and a bottle of champagne and Bordeaux and it was a very happy birthday indeed : )
Bagels: My Dad made these bagels for brunch and I stole the recipe, and then changed it up a bit. I was looking for that great bagel texture that many homemade bagels are missing, but wanted to be able to make them gluten free. I don't mind full fat dairy, so you will see that I made it healthier in some ways and decidedly unhealthier in others! They are even better toasted...in my opinion! This great recipe is originally from @bella_gets_waisted!
Mala Making: I would consider myself a spiritual person. I was raised Catholic, but couldn't accept many of the teachings as truth as the years went on. I believe in a higher power, I believe those who have passed are always with us and I believe in the power of intention, but I no longer practice spirituality in an organized way. I first found comfort in mala beads two years ago. My yoga studio had just opened, at the time, in a shared space with another business. I had invited Krista Lynn Designs to run a mala workshop for my clients. It was so much fun and so meaningful to me. I love the idea of focusing my attention on the seeking and manifesting of something close to my heart, and being able to wear a physical reminder of that idea. Now, I have 6 different malas. My newest one is pictured above. I wouldn't be able to keep the intentions connected to each straight if my life depended on it, but I do know, that whatever I need most at the moment I dress in the morning, clarity, peace, strength, truth, abundance or trust, that's what is on my mind as I move and breathe through the day.
Realizations: Okay - lightbulb moment! In the spirit of things I should have known or probably already knew...but needed to realize again...here we go!
One of my common struggles is my tendency to try to do it all. I will have some great ideas for healthy routines or structures and I will be so enthusiastic about them....and try to implement them, very often all at once. Then I'm down, confused and frustrated with my self when I am unable to sustain this new way of life.
I probably don't need to spend too much time explaining how that backfires 90% of the time!
There are so many things I want to be incorporating into my day, so I sat down to put ideas to paper to try to figure out the root of my difficulty in application.
I realized I am the difficulty!
It only took a lot of time, many failed attempts to wholeheartedly start well-intentioned routines and the sage wisdom of some of my favorites...Jay Shetty, Arianna Huffington, Brene Brown...etc etc., to bring into focus the need for a singular small actionable step.
I made a list of all of the areas of my life where I have frustration in the amount of attention I am able to consistently put forth. I found many connecting threads (see above diagram).
I want to eat clean and be healthy.
But because I am not getting enough sleep and haven't meal planned sufficiently, and try to do too much, I end up shoving something that is not of the same caliber, in my face in desperation....
See the pattern...? Can anyone relate?
Every area that I listed, would benefit from clarity. Part of that clarity is in the wisdom to slow my roll and proceed with these micro-steps, the other clarity needs to come from a grounding...a consistent practice in tuning in...a meditation practice.
Despite the fact that I am a yoga instructor and a former studio owner, my personal meditation practice has been an inconsistent one...for all of the reasons I have listed above. For those of you that know me well, you will know I just don't stop! That has always been the reason I have neglected to prioritize this in the past.
But in reality, it is exactly the reason it should be on the top of my list now.
So - baby steps. I am giving myself space, to eat what my body craves, to move when my body desires movement, to write, when I feel the calling to write....but to impose no other routine, other than that of meditation and non-judgement. Even then, I am beginning small...a 3 minute timer....if I want more, I'll stay longer...
So now I set forth armed with my meditation cushion and an abundance of loving kindness ....I'll let you know how this goes!
Questions/Comments For You!
- Send me Busual outdoor ideas for Spring!
- Do you struggle with trying to do it all?
- What routine or ritual have you been practicing lately?